time at hueco winding down

I got one more week, I got 4 climbs that I have invested quite a bit of time into and I really want to get. This is the first time in my life that I have been at an area for so long and become attached to a problem or problems. I feel like all of them could go on any one day or I could not get either of them during the next week...obviously I guess. Its going to depend on my mind, Im more than physically strong enough to do them but mentally we will see. I leave here next thursday regardless. Its going to be interesting to see my mindset as I get closer to leaving. I actually feel pressure to send for the first time, its not like I can come back every other weekend. Climbing so much I have underestimated the effect of falling, failing, so much. When we climb for a weekend we fall a weekends worth. Even with no sends over a weekend, its not demoralizing to fall as much as you do. Ive been climbing for 6 weeks straight nearly 5 days a week and I have fallen an absolute ton, really atleast 2000 times finally. Its a learning experience to work through that to stay as motivated as I am used to all while constantly getting shut down. The longest project I have had here, I have invested probably 7 days in, probably over 15 hours and fallen roughly 10 times each day. Succeeding after that much failure will feel as great as I possible could imagine. I try to find the smallest progress in each climb which is magageable, and have extremely small goals daily instead of merely dreaming of the time I send. This way im able to increase my confidence daily rather than focusing on the result of the climb in its entirety. I can translate this train of thought to everyday life and would work just the same. Simply put, its about the journey not just the destination.